Unbearable Agony: My Battle With the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches
It began on a gloomy weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sharp pain bloomed behind my right eye. Then came quick shocks, reminiscent of electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the pain subsided and then returned with increased intensity. Four times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and ran to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took paracetamol, but the agony remained unbearable.
The headaches returned frequently that fall, and once more in the spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the routine: aura in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-on agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.
This condition typically start with severe discomfort behind a single eye that lasts up to several hours.
Approximately 1 in 1000 people suffer by the disorder, and men are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches usually begin with abrupt, excruciating agony around one eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. I have the episodic form, which arrives in periodic bouts; some patients have continuous attacks, defined by the lack of long symptom-free periods.
What unites patients is the intensity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. Another found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the figure dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.
Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, like several causes, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.
Her relatives often mistook her attacks as drunken episodes. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during attacks. Her definitive diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.
Nevertheless, the inability to organize daily activities around erratic attacks took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.
Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The first description of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the topic. They attributed the disease to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.
Historical medical texts suggest bizarre remedies for what some observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a separate condition, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more superstitious cures.
It was a Dutch doctor who provided the first detailed description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and vanishing daily at specific hours”.
The disorder were only formally recognised by global medical committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel which supplies blood to the head. Leading specialists in treating the disorder note this.
In 1998, scientists released the results of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, published in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.
Despite such advances, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four operations before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a physician researched his symptoms.
Neurologists say delays in diagnosing and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” one says. He works by eliminating other primary headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is crucial: on which side do signs appear? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.
Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She thinks the dental profession still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a reassuring advisor guided me through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode passed.
Official guidelines on management recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific medication administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the bouts of some people.
But leading neurologists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a more defined treatment pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, timing is critical: “The duration of the bout dictates the approach.” Brief bouts with occasional attacks are handled with acute treatment only. Longer or more severe bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the area of the head where the discomfort is that decreases nerve signals.
The official guidelines need updating to reflect a